Woo

Started the day at 182.2! Way to lift my spirits.

I just got back from a veryyyy good workout. Ah, I feel so amazing. Just when i’m getting to the end of a workout, and I can see a nice shower and bedtime ahead of me, and I push through all of the pain and doubt, I forget all about how much I dread going to the gym. I think “Why don’t I LOVE this more?!” Haha, if only it felt like that all the time.

Today I had another breakfast sandwich (220 cals). I didn’t eat a real lunch because I don’t have time on Mon & Wed, but I ate some mario fruit snacks (80 cal) and a light n fit yogurt (80 cal). I also had a reeses mini (36 cals) and some cocoa roast almonds (100 cal). So today was more of a snack day. For dinner Jason made Thai peanut chicken. It was really good. We bought reduced fat peanut butter and lite soy sauce and such, so it was only 320 cals. We also had brown rice (150 cals) and veggies. It was yummy! I love that we can make just little changes and significantly lower the calorie count. All while eating the yummy stuff that we love! I’ve got more than 400 cals left for the day. I think i’ll eat an ice cream…

Now i’m watching biggest loser. Ya know, i’m pretty scared about what happens AFTER I lose the weight. I mean, i’ve gained most of it back before. It’s terrifying. What sucks is I know i’ll never be able to eat like a skinny girl. I’m not a skinny girl, even if I lose weight. I’ll still just be a fat girl who lost weight. I’ll never have the metabolism of the girls that can eat anything that they want. It’s not fair! I reeeeally want Chic Fil-A Like a lot. A sandwich with WAFFLE FRIES. and hot sauce to dip them in. AGHHHH. I need to make the Hungry Girl chicken sandwich and try the butternut squash fries again. They were a failure last time, but I am REALLY craving waffle fries. And i’ll buy some Red Hot. Damn it, now i’m craving it worse haha. I’m for sures getting an ice cream bar.

First post.

Today I decided i’d like to start a blog. I have so many thoughts running through my head throughout the day that I figure I may as well put them somewhere. Especially since i’m trying to lose weight. I like to talk to people about my weight loss, but it seems rude to always be talking about myself! Forums and such are a good way to meet people with similar goals, but sometimes I just need the spotlight all on me. That’s what I decided to blog.

I used to blog. A lot, actually. I had a livejournal that I used every single day. But that was also when I was like 13 and in junior high school, with no life. But now i’m busy. I’m a student, a girlfriend, a daughter, a friend. I have so much going on that sometimes it’s hard for me to find the motivation to take the time to blog. But i’m going to try.

Today was a good day. I ate a frozen breakfast sandwich from king soopers that tasted like an egg mcmuffin (220 calories). Then for lunch I had a lean cuisine panini (320 calories). Those things are soooooo good! For a snack I had a chocolate mint mousse from jello (60 calories) and for dinner Jason and I went to Megawraps. I had my usual, a 7inch roasted chicken breast with ancho chipotle sauce (300 calories) and a bag of barbecue lays (140 calories). So i’m well under my allotment for the day which feels good. I may even eat an ice cream bar later…. The Skinny Cow Mint Truffle are AMAZING! And only 100 calories! I’m putting off going to the gym right now…just until my ipod charges. I’m so glad I did well today. This weekend was a nightmare.

Friday Jason and I had dinner at the Old Spaghetti Factory and I made some really good choices. I got weighed at the Dr. and lost 10 lbs! In a month! I started at 193.4 and was 183 on saturday! Unfortunately, I failed miserably later that night. My friends threw a surprise party for me and had nothing but fatty foods to eat I even a lot of McDonalds fries. Ugh. PLUS all of the alcohol I drank…. My scale said 187 on sunday morning. 187!!! I knew it was just water weight, but still. It sucked. Though today I was at 183 again! Thank Jesus. Now it’s all about moving DOWN from there.

Well I guess i’d better get going to the gym before it gets too late… I’d say this is a pretty good first entry. Hopefully I can keep this up… Blogging is fun!